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>>>Entry: 12/22/2006, 15:46<<<
My co-workers are all leaving work now, as if the world suddenly stops needing us when Christmas time hits. This time of year always makes me nostalgic. I'm going to wax poetic here for a bit, so forgive me. Well, for starters I am the child of a dramatically abusive relationship with my father. That fact helps define me as a person, and helps keep me on the narrow path of helping the children that are like me. My father was a very violent alcoholic, and he would beat my mom and me. When I was five, my sister was born. My mom always felt guilty that she'd brought another Hiroshige into the world, but my father always treated Mari as an outsider. I think he thought that she wasn't really his. I never got the chance to find out, but in my mind Mari is still very much my family. But I digress from the time line here. I never saw him hit my sister, but I'm pretty sure that if he'd lived another few years that would have been the case. I've seen enough of that kind of relationship in my line of work to be thankful that he didn't live long enough to start with the sexual perversion. When I was ten, he managed to get himself drunk enough to walk into traffic, which ended as it should have, with him dead. I didn't really have a strong support system to get me through this time, and I ended up getting involved in a lot of fights at school. As my Christmas present in 1992, Mom decided to enroll me in a martial arts program to keep me out of trouble, which probably saved my life. So I tend to feel a bit of an emotional twinge every time this time of year comes around. I still go to her grave every few months to try and figure out why she put us through that Hell for so many years. I suppose she did her best to protect us. In 2003, she was diagnosed with heart disease, and last year she died. Things were a bit rough, but I know how to handle my problems. Yes, I drink, but I have it under control. Not like my father, who couldn't control his urges. My will is strong, and I can control it.
>>>Entry: 2/15/2007, 1:27<<<
I hate blind dates. My friend set me up with this... skank. I can't abide by the women that seem to throw themselves into a man's arms just for the sake of feeling comfortable. They are stronger than they look, and stronger than they think they are. There's no need for a man in a relationship, and men usually just complicate things. A relationship should be equal, and a woman needs to be just as strong as the man they get themselves involved with. That's the end of yet another successful Valentine's day for me... I'm going back to my friend Mr. Cuervo.
>>>Entry: 2/15/2007, 7:10<<<
What did I do last night? I woke up with some hooker in bed, kicked her out, and I don't even know where I am. There's bottles of various liquors all around the room, and I think that's a needle over there on the table. I can't be seen like this....this is getting out of control. I need help. Tomorrow...no, TODAY, I'm getting into a program. This is probably going to be the last time I get to record my journal for a while.
>>>Entry: 4/30/2007, 9:30<<<
Well, my 28 days are up. I have already called work, and they've agreed to give me back my old job. I really feel good right now, and I think I can finally begin to do a great deal of good in the world. Shinto has really helped get me through this dark time in my life, and I owe a great deal to my sensei, Toshi Watanabe. He's focusing my mind and my body to become more in tune with Nature, and I can feel it all around me. This is what my ancestors used to feel, and sometimes I think I can feel their presence in my veins. I carry a lot more weight now than I used to, but it doesn't seem to be as heavy as it was. I'm due at the OHS tomorrow, but I think I'll go over there today to see if I can put some of my life back in order.
>>>Entry: 8/14/2007, 21:35<<<
My bosses never told me that I would be stuck managing the graveyard shift here, but oh well. The pay is a lot better now that I'm not directly in the trenches. I miss getting my hands dirty though. At least I get to meet interesting new people, like Seth Fallon. Seth was a detective at one point, but he seems too young to have retired. Still, he's no longer a detective and he occasionally maintains ties with some of the ladies in my office. He's a private investigator now, and sometimes needs information from us, particularly about deadbeat dads and runaways. He's a genuinely nice guy, and I can tell that he's suffered quite a bit. Maybe we can become friends. He's a private eye, I'm a social worker, I can see how we could help each other. ::Chuckles:: Maybe we can become a crime fighting duo that goes around Atlanta and saves children from their lives, and arrests the bad guys!
>>>Entry 11/27/2007, 23:08<<<
Thanksgiving was very interesting. Mari and I had a nice turkey dinner, after which she told me that she's moving to LA. Her job as a marketing executive has given her a nice promotion, but it comes with a relocation. Hopefully she'll find what she needs out there, and she will be able to be happy. We'll stay in touch via email, and she bought me this nifty PDA that we can use to stay in touch. It has a GPS feature that allows me to track her location, and for her to track mine. I think that's really nice. As a side note, I have been sober now for 209 days! I find that my faith in Shinto is really the only thing that helps in the really dark times. When I met up with Seth the other night, he mentioned a case that reminded me of my mother. This guy was abusive, but they didn't have children. Eventually he ended up killing her, but she would have died anyway because she was found to have ovarian cancer. They didn't know because he kept her locked away from the rest of the world. I just have to keep reminding myself that there's a reason for everything, and that everything will eventually work itself out. Nature is cyclical, and everything returns to it's origin. Seth told me that he values my self-control, that I am a “bulwark for him in the night” or something like that. I really feel like I've developed a close friend, though he's a bit eccentric. He doesn't really move or fidget, and when he talks about his past, I can tell that there's too much pain for him to handle without a great deal of control. We really are very similar people, and I think that time will eventually get him to open up to me. I need a friend like him right now, with Mari leaving he's going to be my only regular human contact outside of work.
Description
Namikaze's style of dress is typically business casual. He likes clothes that fit well, and are of high quality, but practicality is foremost in his appearance. He wears his hair about medium length, with long bangs. He sometimes forgets to shave and gets a little bit of facial hair. When he's not working, he's usually working out, so he's often a bit sweaty. His movements are usually deliberate and fluid, and if one watches him very closely, they will notice he tends to produce very little wasted energy. He does seem to be a bundle of energy though, and his muscular body is the result of that energy being put to very good use. His eyes are sharp and clear, and they reveal a dark past, but also a feral nature that's often a bit unsettling.
Personality
Namikaze is a fun-loving person that truly seems to get the full benefit out of life. Being a devout believer in Shinto, he feels that life is a part of Nature, and that Nature is cyclical. Everything returns to Nature, and knowing that why would anyone be afraid of death? Why focus on the afterlife when there's so much living to be done? But that's just the rub... there is more to life than hedonism and frivolity. One must work hard to get what they want, and that focus shows in Namikaze's eyes. He truly loves sticking up for the "little guy" and takes great pains to defend the downtrodden whenever possible. Though he might not be in the trenches of social work anymore, his passion is still there.
Photo Album
(The model for these pictures is a Korean Actor/Singer named Bae Yong Joon)
Recent History
Will be added as gameplay progresses, will contain information that should be treated as OOC.